I went through the front doors of the court as my abuser went in the back
"The police told me that they wanted to take the case to court. I got worried as it got closer to the time. My mum got in touch with NSPCC and I was linked with the Young Witness Service.
Anne*, my key worker, came out to my house to meet me which was good.She was really cheerful when I met her. I’d been nervous about another new face - a new person coming to meet me.
She went through what was going to happen during court and said that she was trying to see if I could give evidence through a live link.
It was all very formal and different. People using terms like “Your Honour” and it was hard to take the wigs seriously.
I wish the barrister could have listened more and didn't interrupt me when I was trying to talk. He didn't look at me; he just looked around at everyone else which made me feel paranoid. But, when he did look at me I got scared.
"It was really good to have Anne and Colleen*, my Young Witness Service volunteer, in the court waiting room to distract me. They’re the reason why I felt supported, they were really important."
Going to court and being questioned about my evidence brought all of my memories of the abuse straight back. I felt like my recovery was set straight back at the beginning again – it had a really big effect on me.
Colleen wouldn’t let me sit on my phone and made me do something productive so we ended up playing cards. I’d have just been playing on my phone, looking through pics, making myself look occupied.
Colleen was able to sit in the corner of the live link room while I was giving evidence. It was good to have another person in the room, even though I couldn’t talk to her."